To tell you the truth, I really don't feel like writing right now...

But oh well, I haven't done it in a while and I should.

But really, there's not much to talk about. I mean, things are still going on like normal. My daughter's good (most days), my husband's good (sometimes) and I'm good (most days). Normal life, ya know?

The settlement check hasn't come yet, but it should soon. Then we plan on having one of those debt consolidation companies, well, consolidate our debt. Then we'll take about half of the settlement and put it towards our new total debt, which will leave us with roughly a fourth of the debt we now have and a very real possibility of actually being in a house within the next 5 years. The rest of the money we're going to keep so we can do some things we've been wanting or needing to do but haven't been able to afford to. Like Matt needs new glasses especially bad since Lorelai just broke them. And we'd like to get a collapsible dining table so Lorelai can start getting used to eating at the table instead of walking around the living room. And I'm going to get a bike.

A freaking expensive bike. But it's necessary. See, with me trying to lose the weight I packed on during my wheelchair time and pregnancy, I need to add a little exercise in and a lot of change to my eating habits. I've pretty much changed how I eat while still leaving me room to have what I want sometimes instead of all the time, but with it starting to get cold our and our apartment's pool being unheated, I can't swim anymore. And, I'll admit, I really like this bike because it's gorgeous. However, it's practical too. The way the seat height is compared to the handlebar height makes it easier to sit up straight instead of leaning over, which is easier on my hips. And the seat height is closer to the ground so it won't tweak my ankle to stop and put my feet on the ground at light or whatever. But because I need that technology (which just happens to come in a very pretty package), it's an expensive bike. Like about $500.

But the way I see it, even after using half the settlement to pay off debt, we'll still have thousands left. Plus, with the debt consolidation, we'll be paying out less per month than we are now, so we'll be saving more. Which means it might hurt my head to hand over that much cash, but at least I'm not doing it in a situation like the present one, we're we pay out over $1000 per month in debt and are constantly going paycheck to paycheck. At least I'm waiting until we actually have $500 as EXTRA cash, and not putting it on a card. And I actually mean EXTRA as in, "Well, it'd just be sitting in the bank anyways, so why not put it to use AND help me lose weight AND look good doing it on a gorgeous bike?"

Let's see... what else? Um, our three year anniversary was last week. We had my mom watch Lorelai Friday night and we hung out with Danny and Jessica without worrying about the fact that Lorelai wouldn't go to sleep or need to eat or needed a diaper change. Then we had Matt's mom watch her from Saturday morning until Sunday afternoon. We went to the movies (which we haven't done since before Lorelai was born... possibly since before I was pregnant), the Adult Convention (yes, I just said that... it was actually half fun and half funny with a little bit of sexy thrown in... you'd think for an essential porn convention, it'd be more sexy, but there were some weirdo's there that just made you laugh). Then we went to dinner at BJ's in Burbank and it was super nice. We actually talked. No trying to calm a fussy kid who doesn't want to sit in her high chair or eat her food (why, when our food looks so much better?). Just talked about stupid and semi-important stuff. It was really nice. Then we went to a club and had a blast. The next day, after Matt asked me what I wanted to do, I popped off with, "Let's go to Venice Beach! I've never been there!" Matt semi-freaked that I'm 25 and have lived in Southern California all my life without ever having gone there. We walked from one end to the other and bought a few small things, like a new "wedding" ring for me (a $5 wire ring bent to say "Love" since my wedding rings are getting too big and I still need to lose about 100 pounds so there's no point in resizing them now), a piece of art for our room, a refrigerator magnet, and sunglasses for me. We visited the freak show and I made Matt promise the next time we were somewhere with a psychic, he'd get a reading. We talked all day and walked arm in arm and it was freaking amazing. It was like we were dating again, but with way more comfort with and knowledge about each other. It was less than 48 hours together, but it meant the world and made me feel so much more connected to him.

After that, we went to Matt's parents house for a birthday party and to pick up Lorelai. On their block there was an open house, so when we got there and found Lorelai taking a nap, we went and checked it out, which was cool and nice to do so we can start getting a sense of what kind of house we'd both be happy with. This house was laid out in a way I really liked (except for the jacuzzi tub being in the stand alone bathroom upstairs instead of the master bathroom downstairs). It had a library (whoooo hooooo!!!) and a billiards rooms (yipeeeee!!!). I liked the backyard, but Matt didn't. There was a lot that would need to be updated, which we both decided we weren't too keen on. We don't mind having to change a few things, but we'd like the kitchen and bathrooms to be 80-90% how we'd like them since they're the most expensive renovations. These were laid out how we wanted them, but aside from (ugly) granite counter tops in the kitchen, everything else was about 30 years old. We went back to his parents house and celebrated our brother-in-law's birthday and by the time we got home, everyone was ready for bed.

Now it's just been normal life again, but we're a little closer this week. A little more innocent touches, like hugs and kisses and cuddling, a lot more talking about actual things instead of just Lorelai (not that she's not an "actual thing".... you know what I mean). All in all, life is good.